J: July 2007

Tuesday, July 24, 2007

Death

It bothers me that the time we spend considering our own death mostly comes in the eleventh hour. Only until we are done, in the the dark, alone with our thoughts does it sink in. Then we sleep, ignoring all the things we didn't tell the people we love, ignoring the dreams we didn't fufill, and ignoring the fact that we may never see daylight again.

We drift, slowly, into oblivion.

And, then, redemption. The sun rises on another glorious, beautiful day. And we take it for granted yet again. We merely walk when we could run. We sit and tap our feet when we should be dancing. We eat fiber-enriched fodder and sip diet cola when we should, just once, eat as if this meal were the very last.

It seems to me that we humans are the only species who does things like this. We merely drudge on day after day, thinking that our real lives must be just around the corner. Rather than treasure each precious moment of the glorious human experience, rather than explore every aspect of ourselves and all of creation, we choose to sell our lives to Burger King or Bank of America or Exxon.

At the risk of sounding childish, that's not fair.

No fair, no fair no fair NO FAIR!

Well, says mom and dad and Big Brother, Life's Not Fair.

Know what? I say, you're right. Life's not fair. We really don't get second chances. When we choose (and it is a choice) to waste our lives on things that don't make us happy and don't help us become who we are, we are one day faced with the sad, awful truth of a life wrongly lived.

That's death.

Monday, July 2, 2007

Courage to Act

Civilization will come down, and the sooner it comes down, the more life (and capacity for life) will remain afterwards.

Those reading this blog may or may not agree, but none of it matters because, truth be told, everyone is too scared to do anything about it. Maybe we are all just disturbed about the labels that might accompany this philosophy put to action. After all, our Commander in Chief has stated very clearly that the War on Terror is a war for civilization. It must then follow that all terrorists are against civilization, right? For people like us, who want civilization to come down, isn't that guilt by association? We are not talking about the religous fundementalists, no. We aren't talking about the religious fanatics responsible for the 9/11 attacks. Most importantly, we are not talking about those who pose a serious threat to the civilians of the United States. We are,instead, talking about people who pose a threat to men like George W. Bush. We all have a very important choice to make. It is an age-old choice. Do we choose to act, or choose to wait?

If we wait, or try to create change using only the means allowed us, things will be bad. Whatever happens, the surviving humans are going to be left to try and recover. The least we can do is put systems in place that will help them when the time comes.

If, however, we have the skills and courage to act outside the boundaries of law and class, if we can rise to this tremendous challenge and take down civilization before it destroys us, we will have many heroic stories to tell our children.

Think about your own parents and grandparents. What kind of stories do they tell you? Do they tell you stories at all? Do they tell you fantastic tales of rescue or conquest?

Close your eyes for a moment. Imagine yourself as a child, shrouded in light at your own knee. You are your grandchildren. Now imagine the world you are living in two generations from now. Does it have cars and smoke filled skies? Does it have clean rivers and coasts? Is the general population infested with disease, and do you have to get monthly screenings to check for cancerous tumors?

Think about what the next seven generations will have to say about us. Will they recoil at our memory due to they insane lack of foresight and responsibility? Or will they be inspired and awed at our ability to rise to the challenges of our time and our courage to act?

Excerpt From The Holy

Prologue

One day the hand of a god . . .

Tim sat cross-legged on the floor of his room, staring fascinated at the life that teemed within a column of early morning sunlight. It was a special world, that sunbeam—a world you could enter and disrupt but never belong to. The boy passed his hand through it and watched a swarm of golden sparks hurry out of its way, and he imagined them thinking, “What was that, what was that?” But after a moment the excitement subsided, and they resumed their dreamy wandering. Had this astounding event already been forgotten in their world, or would tales of it be told for generations? One day, the hand of a god crashed through the world, sweeping us all into turmoil and panic. . . . In two months—an infinitude of time to him—the boy would enter kindergarten. He understood the significance of this event with great clarity. No one had explained it; he’d worked it out for himself, over the winter. He’d had to, in order to understand the great crime he'd committed just before Christmas. He had told JoJo, the three-year-old next door, that there is no Santa Claus. She had been shattered, heart-broken, and her parents had reacted as if he’d plunged a knife into her body. He was in disgrace for weeks—plenty of time to work it all out. It’s important (or perhaps even necessary) to keep small children in the dark about things—big things, little things: all things. It’s important to deceive, to confuse, to pretend ignorance, to avoid a plain answer to a direct question. It’s even important to promote lies where no questions are asked, as in the case of Santa Claus. By divulging the truth to JoJo, the boy had disrupted the plan, had committed a crime of cosmic proportions. Everyone collaborated in the deception—even older children. And the boy would soon understand why. As a kindergartner, he would become one of the older children, and the age of secrecy and lies would be behind him forever. This, he was sure, was the threshold he’d be crossing in two months. He would be entering a world where one is shaped by the unfolding of mysteries hidden from the eyes of the very young. Older kids naturally pretended it was nothing—a bore and a drag. This was only to be expected; it was part of the plan. He wondered if he would agree to collaborate with them in the pretense. It would depend on the explanation he was given for it. The boy’s hand swam again through the living beam of light, and he thought contemptuously: Dust. His father had told him the sparks that live in the light are particles of dust. An obvious lie. Another obvious lie among multitudes he'd been told. For him, the two months ahead seemed like two years. He closed his hand gently around a cluster of glowing motes, knowing they couldn’t be captured and taken out of their beam of light. He wondered if they passed through the flesh of his hand to escape or simply flowed around his fingers. He opened his hand, his fingers together, and instantly a whole colony of sparkles was snuffed out in a column of shadow within the sunbeam. He turned his hand sideways, and a new generation was born to cavort in the light. But this generation only lived a moment, as some larger shadow outside swept them into nothingness. The boy looked up from the floor and was startled to see a man standing at the window. Not exactly a man, maybe, since his massive, heavy-browed head sported snake-like horns, and his skin was strangely mottled. The boy stood up to have a closer look, and the creature outside watched him solemnly, with the eyes of a large, intelligent animal. They stared at each other in stillness and silence, and the boy felt he’d never been looked at with such intensity and penetration. The bones of the man’s face molded it into an expression of complete ambiguity—half a thunderous scowl and half an animal’s grin, so that the boy didn’t know whether to be frightened or delighted. The man seemed enormously proud of his colorful, strangely twisted horns, but the oddest thing about the creature—or man, if he was a man—was his clothing. A man with horns somehow shouldn’t be dressed in an ordinary tan shirt and jeans. Wanting his mother to come see him, Tim ran to the kitchen and said, “There’s a man outside.” “A man?” his mother asked, drying her hands on a dish towel. “He’s got a face sort of like an animal and he has horns.” Ellen Kennesey smiled indulgently. “There’s no man outside.” “There is! He’s standing right outside my window!” “You imagined it.” For a moment the boy stared at her, thunderstruck. He’d imagined it? She had never accused him of imagining things when he’d seen a praying mantis or a bull snake or a falling star. But now, for some reason, he was imagining things? Then he understood, and his indignation was transformed into a bitter resignation. The creature he’d seen at the window belonged to that infinitely large world of things to be lied about to children. She knew perfectly well what the thing was, but she wasn’t allowed to tell him. She wouldn’t come to his room to look at it, because then she’d be forced to invent still more lies to answer his questions. It was easiest to put him off with a single, unanswerable lie: he’d imagined it. At the age of four and a half, he’d learned a profound and unforgettable truth: There is a lie to be told about everything.

Tuesday, July 24, 2007

Death

Monday, July 2, 2007

Courage to Act

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